2 years old

Another year has gone by and I can't believe my baby is
2 years old today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
Zack-a-rito-burrito
(I'll post later what we did to celebrate his birthday)
I love you

FoR SaLe

I'm sad to report that my house is for sale....(tear)

I was really hoping to stay in the house, but it didn't work out. Once the house sells the boys and I will be moving,but we will only be moving less then a half mile away, so all in all I'm doing better with the whole idea of moving.

The day the house was put on the market I just sat and cried, but after the shock and tears I realized that maybe it is best that we move. A new home, and a fresh start.

Let's Park It...

Today was a crazy fun day. This morning I took the boys on a 5 mile run, which all 3 of us love going on our daily runs. After our run we sat out front of the house and watched the fireman practice in the pool parking lot. The Captain came over and showed the boys the captains fire hat, and all that jazz, Zack was so mesmerized by it all.

The last week has not been a really good one, so my girl Jayce called me and said get off your butt and let's park it. First we all met at BK in Farmington and ate yummy food, then headed to the park in Kaysville. The Castle park is such a neat and fun park for kids, except that Zack an Reese kept sneaking off, those two kids are WAY to quite and to fast for these mommies.

Side note: I look so freaking hot because I had just got back from running, and had yet to shower and get dress, so I just went in my running stuff.

Brock was not happy to have his picture taken with mommy

Jayce and Reese,

hanging around

Reese, Jayce, Halle

Zack is such a people watcher, but never smiles when around other kids, he is just so in Awh around other kids.

Brock driving the boat, I was only able to take his picture because I was being sneaky.

Brock and Mommy

Kristina,Jayce, and Halle

Look at the cheese face I have...hahaha

All in all it was a pretty fun day at the park. I really wanted to just hide out, but Jayce convinced me to come join her and her girls.

My girl here got some news yesterday that her hubby is being deployed soon, and I just want her to know that I love her and will be here for her ALL THE WAY....She has been so kind to invite me and the boys to move it with her, which is something that I'm strongly considering. It is great to know that we will have a place to go if things don't work out this week....

This week divorce is down to the wire, and I have to say that I have felt such stress, anxiety, and been completely sick about all this. I have been throwing up alot lately, and been beyond exhausted due to all this divorce @#$%.

By Tuesday I will know if the boys and I are homeless or what.....Oh yes, I said homeless....I am so venting about this.....MY ever so kind soon to be EX has informed me that I'm going to be homeless and that I will be living in my car.....then wonders WHY THE HELL i don't want to stay married???? well DUHHHHHHHHHH. Okay, I feel so much better saying that.

It's a roller coaster

What a weekend

My girl Jaycie told me I should blog more about my feelings, also that she thinks I should write a book with all the stuff that's happen in my life...lol...maybe that's how I'll make some money.
Weekend started out fine, went Friday and saw my dad in the hospital, my little bro Nate had flown in from Washington, so it was great to see him.

THEN

At one point it ALL just went like this

This is how I felt

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I felt like I could just

SCREAM
then

MORE SCREAMING

then

I bought some of

THESE...my favorite

THEN

I went and saw this

ALONE

then

I did tons of this

THEN some more freaking out!!

So the whole movie thing, I heard this movie was great, and I needed something to take my mind of of everything, and so this is the movie I decided to see. Let me tell you I had mixed feelings about it. I sat through it, oh and might I add I wasn't the ONLY single lady seeing the movie alone..lol. The movie sure made me think and laugh about the old days when I was single and dating....UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH.....I sat there thinking what the hell, I have to do this ALL over again. I left movie thinking that maybe I'll just not date and be a single mommy the rest of my life, just to avoid all DRAMA of dating. Thinking does he call, will he call, do you call him, what does it mean if it's days and hasn't called...blah, blah, blah,blah....I don't know what's worse dating when teenagers, or dating when an adult...LAME...

I would have to say the best thing to do when going through a lot is to take up running. It has been such a stress relief for me. I managed one of those days to run to Wal-Mart and back. I reached Wal-Mart and figured it was time to turn around and go home. By the time I got home I thought I would throw up, but it sure did help clear my mind, an just for a sec let me forget about what I was trying NOT to think about......UGH.....
THEN
I think the best part of my weekend was hanging out with my girl Jaycie. I can't even begin to express what her friendship means to me. She is there no matter what, and lets me call her at all hours and FREAK OUT, and the best part is that no matter what I tell her, she loves me for me, and doesn't judge me. I spent most of the weekend in the Salt Lake hanging out with Jaycie, her husband and their friends. It was great to be around people (adults), and people that no matter what you do or say will love and be your friend FOREVER.
Jaycie made such yummy food, and I will have to post the recipe for the kick butt desert she made, the way I was feeling I was very surprised I didn't eat the whole pan.
Thanks girl for having me down this weekend. I couldn't have made it through without you
LOVE YA!

Working MOMMY

Tomorrow is the BIG DAY!....some of you might think "it's just a job" big deal, to me this is a HUGE deal.

Tomorrow I start training and next week I start my first shift...YIPPPPPPPPEEEE.

Special thank you to my TWO most wonderful neighbors for helping me with the kids. They are each taking a day. Tarra and Tracey you two are the BEST, I LOVE YOU TWO LADIES!!

My girl Jaycie had this on her blog. I loved it and wanted to share.
I try not to be selfish, but we all have our moments. The rest of it I think describes me to a "T".

I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes. I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure the hell don't deserve me at my best." --Marilyn Monroe

What the...SERIOUSLY!!

Okay so I've been really busy lately, but I wanted to post about this.

OH MY HELL

I feel so bad for Melissa, and this is why....Cuz I totally know how she feels. As I was watching the Bachelor the other night my heart just dropped when I heard all that Jason was saying. I've heard it all before and my heart just went out to that poor girl.

9 years ago I heard all the same stuff..BLAH,BLAH,BLAH,BLAH. Watching it took me back to that horrible day all those years ago, poor girl it will be a day that you'll never forget.

Like her, I was COMPLETELY taken off guard. It was hard enough to hear it, but for her to hear it on national TV, ugh, poor girl.
It is the WORST feeling to ever feel to have someone tell you that one minute they want to marry you and the next....NOT.....it's something I don't think you ever really get over. You move forward, but it's something you'll never forget.

I hope she finds someone great, she deserves it.