"Motherly Love"

This was sent to me in an e-mail.

The title of it is

"Motherly Love"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...k, seriously I see something totally wrong with this..lol..Don't we all do this sometimes? I laughed so hard when I saw this. Thanks to my sweet friend for sending this my way, I needed a good laugh.

Job

I think I found a job?

I'm a little nervous about going back to work and having to leave my boys, but it's what needs to be done. I wont lie I'm having major anxiety about the whole thing, but in the end it's for the better. Also, I will be starting school soon. I'm going to get my CNA license and then will see what happens after that.

I never thought I would be in this situation, so to all you mommies about there, don't just think that being a stay at home mom will always last, cuz I sure thought it would, then all a sudden things got turned up side down.

Prepare yourselves,cuz you just never know. I'm learning things the hard way. I've had no school, no job, no money, no nothing. Learn from me. I'm soon starting a new chapter in my life, FREAKING OUT is what I'm trying NOT to do, but I will admit I slip and have my moments of freaking out.

You just never know!!.....just be prepared.

Mother

I am so in love with these two guys. They are my whole world, I would do anything for them. Today is not a good day and I think I've spent most the day in tears. Even though it's been such a bad day,it's not as bad when I've got these two giving me loves.

During this divorce I've really been questioning myself as a mom, wondering if I'm a good enough mother to Brock and Zack. It makes me sad to think that maybe I'll never have anymore kids and that this is it for me. Funny how before I was sure I didn't want anymore, and now things are totally different...lol.

I knew from a very young age that I wanted to be a mom. I love being called mommy, it's the best sound in the world....BUT....the best part about being a mom is this.

Brock wakes me up the other morning and tells me this.

Brock: (in a whisper) "mom, wake up, I need to tell you something"

Mom: honest I was thinking "ugh, I'm tired"

Brock: "mom, I have to tell you a secret"

Mom: "k, what's the big secret"

Brock: " I just needed to tell you that I LOVE YOU" that's all"

It was the best way to wake up that morning, or any morning. So even though this is extremely hard. I can do it as long as I have the love of my two boys. The greatest thing in life is being a mother, I wouldn't trade it for anything.

MOMMY LOVES YOU BROCK AND ZACK

Lucky One

Have you ever stopped to think about your friends?

Do you stop and think

HOW DID I GET SO LUCKY?

How did I get so lucky to have such great people in my life?

Do you ever stop and think how on earth your life was before

you had these great friends?

Lately this is something I've thought a lot about.

I have some AWESOME people in my life, and I thank my Heavenly Father

every day for them. With out their help this whole thing would be so much harder.

" A TRUE FRIEND IS ONE WHO

KNOWS ALL ABOUT YOU

AND LOVES YOU JUST THE SAME"

"EVERYONE COMES INTO YOUR LIFE FOR: a reason, a season, or a lifetime"

Secret Is Out

I guess it's time to finally let it be known what's going on in my life. For those of you that don't know, this is what's up... I'm getting a divorce.
Does it totally suck...YES....
The last little while has been to say the least a big roller coaster. When you get married you hope, pray, and think that things will always be good,but then there comes a time where you just finally have to say ENOUGH.
This was not an easy decision at all,but it's something that I've given much thought, and many many hours on my knees in prayer. If there was ever a time I felt completely alone it's now, I can't even begin to explain the feeling of emptiness and heartache that comes with getting a divorce. Even when I know it's the right decision, it's those late night when my boys are in bed and it's just me and my thoughts where things are the hardest.
I lost myself as a person for way to long, I'm here to claim that back. The worst part of all is that I also lost the spirit in my life,but am getting that back too.

Let me tell you that taking two boys to church on Sunday alone, during nap time is a challenge, but we go and we make it through. Many ward members have gone out of their way to help me on Sundays with the boys, and sit by me in
Sacrament to help me out. I can't thank people enough for all their support, kind words, phone calls,e-mails, texts, and just a hug to say we love ya.
This has been a very difficult time, that's where I get on my knees and ask for help and guidance. I just tell myself that tomorrow is a new day!

I was in the mood to vent to all that read my blog and tell you that today is February 1st.

This is what I think about this month

I

HATE

VALENTINES

DAY

I hate this whole month, and have never really been a fan of it, never had a good reason to be a fan of it.

So for all you out there that LOVE this month, and this month of LOVE good for you, but for the rest of us, it totally

SUCKS

everytime you walk into a store you have to be reminded that it's the month of LOVE

UGH.

I just needed to vent about my true feelings of this month......maybe one day I'll have a good reason to like this month of

LOVE