Thursday, November 19, 2009

The Light Will Come

This post is for my husband. You've heard these words many times before, but I feel they have more meaning now more then ever.


The message of this moment is so clear


An as certain as the rising of the sun


If you're world is filled with darkness, doubt and fear


Just hold on, hold on; the light will come.


Everyone who's ever tried and failed.


Stands much taller when the victory is won.

And those who have been in darkness for awhile,

Knew much longer when the light has come.


It's a message everyone of us must learn,

that the answers never come without a fight

And when it seems you've struggled far to long

Just hold on, hold on; there will be light.


Hold on; hold on; the light will come.
(Hold on) If you feel trapped inside a never ending night.
(Hold on) If you've forgotten how it feels to feel the light.
(Hold on) If you're half-crazy, thinking you're the only one
Who's afraid the light will never really come.
Just hold on. Hold on. The light will come.


The messages of this moment is so clear

An as certain as the rising of the sun

If your world is filled with darkness, doubt, and fear

Just hold on,hold on, the light will come.


This song has become one of my favorite songs. I listen to it at least twice a day. These words have helped me in so many ways. Life hasn't been anything what I thought it would be lately, but these words give me strength everyday.

(If you want to listen to this song, go to youtube, and type in Michael Mclean-"Hold On The Light Will Come" the video is awesome)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Brock, Luke,Zachary
Luke looks thrilled huh?.lol.
(Luke is my brothers little boy)

I'm totally copying my ex-sister-in-law on this post, but I thought it was such a cute post.

Brock and Zack are so blessed to have so many cousins to play with, just wish we all lived a little closer so we could get together more.

Brock, Cayden, Zachary
Cayden looks thrilled too.lol.
(Cayden is my sister in laws little boy)

Brock, Corten, Zachary
Look, someone who isn't crying to sit next to my wild boys.lol.
(Corten is my ex-sister-in-laws little boy)

I have to say thank you to Stephanie for all the help she has been.
She has saved me many times an watched the boys for me when my sister couldn't.
These boys love, LOVE, playing with all their cousins.
I laugh because what a mixed family we are,but I am glad the boys get to spend time with all sides of the family not matter what all our differences maybe.

No More Room At The Inn


No More Room At the Inn

I had check up today for this little man. Things are going GREAT still.
Baby is just under 5 pounds. Doctor isn't sure how long he is,
WHY you ask?
well it's because he HAS NO MORE ROOM in my belly.
Baby is nice and snug inside so he can't get a really good picture of how long baby is.
I should be seeing doctor every 2 weeks at this point, but baby Mower is growing so well that I go every 3 weeks.
C-section is scheduled and ready for this baby to enter this crazy world.
Not looking forward to the EARLY c-section time, but oh well.
ONLY 6 MORE WEEKS

Thursday, November 12, 2009

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah


My wonderful friend Jaycie always expresses the way she feels by posting a song. Today isn't a very good day. This is how I am feeling today. I miss my husband so much, and truly wonder how someday's I survive. I never knew what it was like to truly love someone not matter what. Never understood unconditional love. Though I did just get a great surprise, but a much needed phone call from Andy. Granted it was only 5 minutes and 32 seconds long, but it was so great to hear his voice.

I LOVE YOU

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Fat Panda

Here you go
For those that have asked to see my belly, here it is.
I know, what a fat panda
Only 7 more weeks before this little man is here.
I am almost positive on his name, but daddy and I are still deciding, so you'll have to wait a little longer to know his name.

I found this picture, which just made me cry.
I miss you so much
I miss laughing
I miss being happy
UGH, I miss....EVERYTHING
I seriously am going to kick you something fearce...lol.

Monday, November 9, 2009

5 years old

HAPPY
5TH
BIRTHDAY

I can't believe that Mister Brock is 5 today

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET BOY
(I will post about his birthday later, we are going to go play for the day)
Mommy loves you